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11/05/11--13:47: harrystylesswaggin: foolme-once-shameonyou: ankletsbeachboys: ... (chan 1359167)





harrystylesswaggin:

foolme-once-shameonyou:

ankletsbeachboys:

i-n-s-a-n-e-e:

m3rmaids-island:

My heart literally dropped when I saw this…I want to kill this man..look at that poor innocent child! We can make a difference against this REBLOG if your against child ABUSE. This needs to be stopped!

i nearly cried.

i don’t care if it will make your blog “ugly” just ffs have a heart

this is so fucking bad, that man deserve to die!

If you dont reblog this because you dont want your blog to look ‘ugly’ then your heart, is ugly

Omg.

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fucking ass needs to die.

Why the fuck is someone taking a photo of this instead of stopping it? My heart aches so bad right now. This man deserves to die, seriously. Poor little thing.




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11/06/11--22:45: Worst day of my life. (chan 1359167)

Today’s honestly the worst day of my entire life, there can’t possibly be a day in the future worse than this one.

My mom had diabetes since she was 7 years old, and recently she had a heart attack, turns out 3 of her arteries were blocked, 100%, 70% and 50% blockage. This happened on the 17th of January of 2011, It was one hell of a day but I managed to get through it with the help of family and friends. A week after, she was discharged from the hospital, she had another heart attack (the doctor which opened her arteries didn’t open them properly due to her state at that time and so it closed again causing the heart attack) and pulmonary edema. So my life kept getting worse and worse..

Until today, I finally realized that I can’t keep on pretending like things are going to be fine one day. I can’t keep on pretending like I am one of those people who are actually going to be happy one day. I am honestly so tired of having to fake a smile each day and pretend that I am happy. I am tired of everything, I am emotionally sick. I feel like someone’s drilling holes in my chest and I am struggling to breathe..

Anyways, lemme get to what happened. I walk into my moms room and find her just laying on her bed, with her eyes wide open and dilated, blood flowing from her mouth and she was having a mild seizure too. All I could do was scream to god begging him to not take her away from me. I then quickly called my dad to call the ambulance (which took him awhile since he was shocked and shivering and stuff), and because I knew she was having hypoglycemia, I tried putting sugar in her mouth despite all the blood that was flowing from it.
The ambulance came (took them a while), and measured her blood sugar, which was 1.1 and the normal is about 4.0. She refused to take any oral glycogen or anything due to the fact she wasn’t conscious at all, and the mouth bleeding turned out was because she bit her tongue during the seizure. After a while, they measured her blood sugar on our way to the hospital and it was 15, which shocked everyone there. They quickly gave her insulin to lower it, but it went very low to 2.3.
Anywho, they brought her blood sugar back to normal (well to HER normal which is 10). She kept asking me in the hospital, what day it was and where she was, i answer her, and seconds later she asked me the same question again, and so on. Which freaked the heck outta me, but the doctors say she’ll regain her memory in some time. They then did some lab results and discharged us. She’s doing fine now, not so bad, but is VERY weak and complaining from weakness in her left leg.

This was my Eid holiday, spent it all in the hospital. All the words in this world can’t even begin to describe how I am feeling at the moment. I am scared to death, scared of one day waking up too late and not being able to help her. I was lucky today to have actually entered her room before it was too late. I’ve got exams next week and I can’t even look at the books, a second cant pass without the image of her laying there on her bed semi-dead rushing through my head. I’ve been crying my eyes out since we got back from the hospital.  I feel hopeless, and that’s something, since I am always an optimistic person who never gives up on life and tries her best to put a smile on my face no matter what.

But today, that’s it. Something in me was damaged completely, I don’t feel the same, I feel like there’s no point to life anymore. I feel like everyday something worse is going to happen. “If suicide wasn’t forbidden, I wouldn’t have been here tonight”

If you guys have healthy parents, thank god everyday for that gift. I’d honestly kill to be in your place at the moment, and not living on the fear of loosing them each and every day.




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11/13/11--11:08: Yes, I have changed. (chan 1359167)

I’ve also learned a lot. I’ve learned not to trust most people, ‘cause they may not be the nicest people once they know your secrets. I’ve learned how to deal with situations on my own. I’ve learned not to rely so much on people, ‘cause they may not be there when I need them. I’ve changed because I’ve experienced so much, things I never wanna go through again, but I know there’s more coming my way.




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11/14/11--12:12: i-v-y-f-c-k-i-n-l-o-v-e-s-y-o-u: Lmfaooooooooo (chan 1359167)





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Lmfaooooooooo




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11/15/11--10:55: xohopeiero: whenever something good happens i get stupidly happy, but then all i do is worry that... (chan 1359167)

xohopeiero:

whenever something good happens i get stupidly happy, but then all i do is worry that it’s just going to disappear like everything else does ):




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11/18/11--02:17: I just want out of this life, can't do it anymore. (chan 1359167)




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11/26/11--03:07: soulmateshaven: 10 Day Tumblr Challenge Day 3: Eight ways to... (chan 1359167)





soulmateshaven:

10 Day Tumblr Challenge

Day 3: Eight ways to win My Heart

1. A guy who could make me smile for no apparent reason. He’s just being himself. Even though we’re not talking about anything, we’re like contented just to be with each other.
2. A guy who could make me totally laugh. He will do anything like crack jokes or do crazy stuffs just to make me laugh so hard.
3. A guy who is proud to show his talents. It may be dancing, with musical instruments or singing.
4. A guy who is not only a computer geek but also good in sports. I understand that it’s in the nature to almost guys that they’re totally addicted to computer games. But, I hope they will still indulge to sports because their health will be unsafe.
5. A guy who excels in academics or is good at it. He knows his priorities. It is fine with me if he’s not an honor student. As long as, he is striving hard to achieve a good grade. That is fine with me.
6. He knows how to respect living organisms especially women. 
7. He is a God-fearing person. For me, if a guy has faith and love in God, then almost everything is within him like knowing hope, trust, fidelity. 
8. A guy who will show me his true colors. He is not shy to make me see his flaws and imperfections. He loves himself. He’s not shy to show me that he loves me. :”>

It’s scary how this guy actually exists in my life right now. Every single point applies to him, damn.




11/27/11--03:54: "There is a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasnt because I thought I would be happy alone. It..." (chan 1359167)

““There is a reason I said I’d be happy alone. It wasnt because I thought I would be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It’s easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don’t have it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It’s like dying. The only difference is, death ends. This? It could go on forever … ””

- (via hellodollface3)